At the time of the Buddha, there lived a monk who yearned to find
the true way to enlightenment. He wanted to know for certain what
was the correct way and what was the incorrect way to train his mind
in meditation. Having decided that living in a monastery with a
large group of monks was confusing and distracting, he went off
wandering looking for quiet places to meditate on his own. Living
alone, he practised continuously, sometimes experiencing periods of
calm when his mind gathered itself in concentration (samadhi), at
other times not finding much calm at all. There was still no real
certainty in his meditation. Sometimes he was very diligent and put
forth great effort, sometimes he was lazy. In the end, he became
caught up in doubt and scepticism due to his lack of success in
trying to find the right way to practise.
During that time in India there were many different meditation
teachers, and the monk happened to hear about one famous teacher,
"Ajahn A", who was very popular and had a reputation for being
skilled in meditation instruction. The monk sat down and thought it
through, and decided that just in case this famous teacher really
knew the correct way to enlightenment, he would set off to go and
find him and train under his guidance. Having received teachings,
the monk returned to meditate on his own again and found that while
some of the new teachings were in line with his own views, some were
different. He found that he was still constantly getting caught into
doubt and uncertainty. After a while he heard of another famous
monk, "Ajahn B", who also was again reputed to be fully enlightened
and skilled in teaching meditation; this news simply fuelled further
doubts and questions in his mind. Eventually his speculation drove
him to go off in search of the new teacher. Having received fresh
teachings, the monk left and went away to practise in solitude once
more. He compared all the teachings he had absorbed from this latest
teacher with those from the first teacher, and found that they
weren't the same. He compared the different styles and characters of
each teacher, and found that they were also quite different. He
compared everything he had learnt with his own views about
meditation and found that nothing seemed to fit together at all! The
more he compared, the more he doubted.
Not long after that, the monk heard excited rumours that "Ajahn C"
was a really wise teacher. People were talking about the new teacher
so much that he couldn't stand it any more and felt compelled to
seek him out and try training with him. The monk was willing to
listen and to try out whatever the new teacher suggested. Some
things he taught were the same as other teachers, some things not;
the monk kept thinking and comparing, trying to work out why one
teacher did things a certain way and another teacher did it
differently. In his mind, he was churning over all the information
he had accumulated on the diverse views and styles of each teacher
and when he put it together with his own views, which were
completely different, ended up with no samadhi at all. The more he
tried to work out where each teacher was at, the more he became
restless and agitated, burning up all his energy until he became
both mentally and physically drained, utterly defeated by his
endless doubting and speculation.
Eventually the monk heard the fast spreading news that a fully
enlightened teacher named Gotama had arisen in the world.
Immediately his mind was completely overwhelmed and started racing
twice as fast as ever, speculating about the teacher. Just as
before, he could not resist the urge to go and see the new teacher
for himself, so he went to pay respects to the Buddha and listen to
him expound the Dhamma. The Buddha explained to him that ultimately,
it's impossible to gain true understanding and transcend doubt
simply through seeking out and receiving teaching from other people.
The more you hear, the more you doubt; the more you hear, the more
mixed up you become. The Buddha emphasised that other people's
wisdom can't cut through your doubts for you. Other people cannot
let go of doubt for you. All that a teacher can do is explain the
way doubts arise in the mind and how to reflect on them, but you
have to take his or her words and put them into practice until you
gain insight and know for yourself. He taught that the place of
practice lies within the body. Form, feeling, memories, thoughts and
sense consciousness_are your teachers; they already provide you with
the basis for insight. What you still lack is a basis in mental
cultivation (bhavana) and wise reflection.
The Buddha taught that the only way to truly end doubt is through
contemplation of your own body and mind -just that much. Abandon the
past; abandon the future -- practise knowing, and letting go.
Sustain the knowing. Once you have established the knowing, let go
-- but don't try to let go without the knowing. It is the presence
of this knowing that allows you to let go. Let go of everything you
did in the past: both the good and the bad. Whatever you did before,
let go of it, because there is no benefit in clinging to the past.
The good you did was good at that time, the bad you did was bad at
that time. What was right was right. So now you can cast it all
aside, let go of it. Events in the future are still waiting to
happen. All the arising and cessation that will occur in the future
hasn't actually taken place yet, so don't attach too firmly to ideas
about what may or may not happen in the future. Be aware of yourself
and let go. Let go of the past. Whatever took place in the past has
ceased. Why spend a lot of time proliferating about it? If you think
about something that happened in the past then let that thought go.
It was a dhamma (phenomenon) that arose in the past. Having arisen,
it then ceased in the past. There's no reason to mentally
proliferate about the present either. Once you have established
awareness of what you are thinking, let it go. Practise knowing and
letting go.
It's not that you shouldn't experience any thoughts or hold views at
all: you experience thoughts and views and then let go of them --
because they are already completed. The future is still ahead of
you: whatever is going to arise in the future, will end in the
future also. Be aware of your thoughts about the future and then let
go. Your thoughts and views about the past are uncertain, in just
the same way. The future is totally uncertain. Be aware and then let
go, because it's uncertain. Be aware of the present moment,
investigate what you are doing right here and now. There is no need
to look at anything outside of your self.
The Buddha didn't praise those who still invest all their faith and
belief in what other people say, neither did he praise those who
still get caught up in good and bad moods as a result of the things
other people say and do. What other people say and do has to be
their own concern; you can be aware of it, but then let go. Even if
they do the right thing, see that it's right for them, but if you
don't bring your own mind in line with right view, you can never
really experience that which is good and right for yourself, it
remains something external. All those teachers are doing their own
practise - whether correctly or incorrectly - somewhere else,
separate from you. Any good practise they do doesn't actually change
you; if it's correct practise, it's correct for them, not you. What
this means is that the Buddha taught that those who fail to
cultivate their minds and gain insight into the truth for themselves
are not worthy of praise.
I emphasise the teaching that the Dhamma is opanayiko --to be
brought inside oneself-- so that the mind knows, understands and
experiences the results of the training within itself. If people say
you are meditating correctly, don't be too quick to believe them,
and similarly, if they say you're doing it wrong, don't just accept
what they say until you've really practised and found out for
yourself. Even if they instruct you in the correct way that leads to
enlightenment, this is still just other people's words; you have to
take their teachings and apply them until you experience results for
yourself right here in the present. That means you must become your
own witness, able to confirm the results from within your own mind.
It's like the example of the sour fruit. Imagine I told you that a
certain fruit tasted sour and invited you to try some of it. You
would have to take a bite from it to taste the sourness. Some people
would willingly take my word for it if I told them the fruit was
sour, but if they simply believed that it was sour without ever
tasting it, that belief would be useless (mogha), it wouldn't have
any real value or meaning. If you described the fruit as sour, it
would be merely going by my perception of it. Only that. The Buddha
didn't praise such belief. But then you shouldn't just dismiss it
either: investigate it. You must try tasting the fruit for yourself,
and by actually experiencing the sour taste, you become your own
internal witness. Somebody says it's sour, so you take it away and,
by eating it, find out that it really is sour. It's like you're
making double sure - relying on your own experience as well as what
other people say. This way you can really have confidence in the
authenticity of its sour taste; you have a witness who attests to
the truth.
Venerable Ajahn Mun referred to this internal witness that exists
within the mind as sitibhuto. The authenticity of any knowledge
acquired merely from what other people say remains unsubstantiated,
it is only a truth proven to someone else -- you only have someone
else's word to go on that the fruit is sour. You could say that it's
a half-truth, or fifty percent. But if you actually taste the fruit
and find it sour, that is the one hundred percent, whole truth: you
have evidence from what other people say and also from your own
direct experience. This is a fully one hundred percent substantiated
truth. This is sitibhuto: the internal witness has risen within you.
The way to train is thus opanayiko. You direct your attention
inwards, until your insight and understanding become paccattam
(knowing and experiencing the truth for yourself). Understanding
gained from listening to and watching other people is superficial in
comparison with the deep understanding that is paccattam; it remains
on the outside of paccattam. Such knowledge doesn't arise from
self-examination; it's not your own insight -- it's other people's
insight. That doesn't mean you should be heedless and dismissive of
any teachings you receive from other sources, they should also
become the subject for study and investigation. When you first come
across and begin to understand some aspect of the teaching from the
books, it's fine to believe it on one level, but at the same time to
recognize that you haven't yet trained the mind and developed that
knowledge through your own experience. For that reason you still
haven't experienced the full benefit of the teaching. It's as if the
true value of your understanding is still only half complete. So
then you must cultivate the mind and let your insight mature, until
you completely penetrate the truth. In that way your knowledge
becomes fully complete. It is then you go beyond doubt. If you have
profound insight into the truth from within your own mind, all
uncertainty about the way to enlightenment disappears completely.
When we speak of practising with the paccuppana dhamma it means that
whatever phenomenon is immediately arising into the mind, you must
investigate and deal with it at once. Your awareness must be right
there. Because paccuppana dhamma refers to the experience of the
present moment -- it encompasses both cause and effect. The present
moment is firmly rooted within the process of cause and effect; the
way you are in the present reflects the causes that lay in the
past-- your present experience is the result. Every single
experience you've had right up until the present has arisen out of
past causes. For instance, you could say that walking out from your
meditation hut was a cause, and that you sitting down here is the
result. This is the truth of the way things are, there is a constant
succession of causes and effects. So what you did in the past was
the cause, the present experience is the result. Similarly, present
actions are the cause for what you will experience in the future.
Sitting here right now, you are already initiating causes! Past
causes are coming to fruition in the present, and these results are
actually forming causes that will produce results in the future.
What the Buddha saw was that you must abandon both the past and the
future. When we say abandon it doesn't mean you literally get rid of
them. Abandoning means the focus of your mindfulness and insight is
right here at this one point-- the present moment. The past and the
future link together right here. The present is both the result of
the past and the cause of what lies ahead in the future. So you must
completely abandon both cause and result, and simply abide with the
present moment. We say abandon them, but these are just words used
to describe the way of training the mind. Even though you let go of
your attachment and abandon the past and future, the natural process
of cause and effect remains in place. In fact, you could call this
the halfway point; it's already part of the process of cause and
result. The Buddha taught to watch the present moment where you will
see a continuous process of arising and passing away, followed by
more arising and passing away.
Whatever arises in the present moment is impermanent. I say this
often, but most people don't pay much attention. They're reluctant
to make use of this simple little teaching. All that is subject to
arising is impermanent. It's uncertain. This really is the easiest,
least complicated way to reflect on the truth. If you don't meditate
on this teaching, when things actually do start to show themselves
as uncertain and changeable you don't know how to respond wisely and
tend to get agitated and stirred up. Investigation of this very
impermanence brings you insight and understanding of that which is
permanent. By contemplating that which is uncertain, you see that
which is certain. This is the way you have to explain it to make
people understand the truth-- but they tend not to understand and
spend the whole time lost, rushing here and there. Really, if you
want to experience true peace, you must bring the mind to that point
where it is fully mindful in the present moment. Whatever happiness
or suffering arises there, teach yourself that it's transient. The
part of the mind that recollects that happiness and suffering are
impermanent is the wisdom of the Buddha within each of you. The one
who recognizes the uncertainty of phenomena is the Dhamma within
you.
That which is the Dhamma is the Buddha, but most people don't
realise this. They see the Dhamma as something external, out there
somewhere, and the Buddha as something else over here. If the mind's
eye sees all conditioned things as uncertain, then all of your
problems that arise out of attaching and giving undue importance to
things will disappear. Whatever way you look at it, this intrinsic
truth is the only thing that is really certain. When you see this,
rather than clinging and attaching, the mind lets go. The cause of
the problem, the attachment, disappears, resulting in the mind
penetrating the truth and merging with the Dhamma. There is nothing
higher or more profound to seek for other than the realisation of
this truth. In that way the Dhamma is equal to the Buddha, the
Buddha is equal to the Dhamma.
This teaching that all conditioned things are uncertain and subject
to change is the Dhamma. The Dhamma is the essence of the Buddha; it
isn't anything else. The purpose of cultivating awareness through
continuous recitation of "Buddho","Buddho" - that which knows - is
to see this truth. When the mind becomes one-pointed through the
recitation of "Buddho", this supports the development of insight
into the three characteristics of impermanence (aniccam), suffering
(dukkham) and nonself (anatta); the clarity of awareness brings you
to view things as uncertain and changeable. If you see this clearly
and directly the mind lets go. So when you experience any kind of
happiness, you know it's uncertain; when you experience any kind of
suffering, you know it's uncertain just the same. If you go to live
somewhere else, hoping it will be better than where you are already,
remember that it's not a sure thing whether you will really find
what you are looking for. If you think it's best to stay here,
again, it's not sure. That's just the point! With insight, you see
that everything is uncertain, so wherever you go to practise you
don't have to suffer. When you want to stay here, you stay. When you
want to go elsewhere, you go and you don't make any problems for
yourself. All that doubting and vacillation about what is the right
thing to do ends. It is the way of training in fixing mindfulness
solely on the present moment that brings the doubts to an end.
So don't worry about the past or the future. The past has already
ceased. Whatever occurred in the past has already taken place and is
over and done with; it's finished. Whatever is going to arise in the
future is also going to end in the future -- let go of that too. Why
get worried about it? Observe the phenomena (dhammas) arising in the
present moment and notice how they are changing and unreliable. As "Buddho"
- the knowing - matures and penetrates deeper, you gain a more
profound awareness of the essential truth that all conditioned
phenomena are of an impermanent nature. This is where insight
deepens and allows the stability and tranquillity of samadhi to
strengthen and become more refined.
Samadhi means the mind that is firm and stable, or the mind that is
calm. There are two kinds. One kind of calm comes from practising in
a quiet place, where there are no sights, sounds or other sensual
impingement to disturb you. The mind with such calm is still not
free from the defilements (kilesa). The defilements still cover over
the mind, but during the time when it is calm in samadhi they remain
in abatement. It's like pond water that is temporarily clear after
all the dirt and dust particles have settled on the bottom; as long
as the sediment hasn't been stirred up the water remains clear, but
as soon as something does disturb it, the dirt rises up and the
water becomes cloudy again. You are just the same. When you hear a
sound, see a form or the mind is affected by a mental state, any
reaction of disliking clouds over the mind. If no aversion is
stimulated you feel comfortable; but that feeling of comfort comes
from the presence of attachment and defilement rather than wisdom.
For example, suppose you wanted this tape recorder. As long as this
desire was unfulfilled you would feel dissatisfaction. However, once
you had gone out looking and found one for yourself, you would feel
content and satisfied, wouldn't you? However, if you attached to the
feeling of contentment that arose because you managed to get your
own tape recorder, you would actually be creating the conditions for
future suffering. You would be creating the conditions for future
suffering, without being aware of it. This is because your sense of
satisfaction would be dependent on you gaining a tape recorder, so
as long as you still didn't possess one, you would experience
suffering. Once you acquired a tape recorder you would feel content
and satisfied. But then if, perhaps, a thief were to steal it, that
sense of satisfaction would disappear with it and you would fall
back into a state of suffering again. This is the way it is. Without
a tape recorder you suffer; with one you're happy, but when for some
reason you lose it, you become miserable again. It goes on like this
the whole time. This is what is meant by samadhi that is dependent
on peaceful conditions. It's uncertain, like the happiness you
experience when you get what you want. When you finally get the tape
recorder you have been looking for, you feel great. But what's the
true cause of that pleasant feeling? It arises because your desire
has been satisfied. That's all. That's as deep as that kind of
happiness can reach. It's happiness conditioned by the defilements
that control your mind. You aren't even aware of this. At any time
somebody could come along and steal that tape recorder causing you
to fall right back into suffering again.
So that kind of samadhi only provides a temporary experience of
calm. You have to contemplate the nature of the calm that arises out
of serenity (samatha) meditation to see the whole truth of the
matter. That tape recorder you obtain, or anything else you possess
is bound to deteriorate, break up and disappear in the end. You have
something to lose because you gained a tape recorder. If you don't
own a tape recorder you don't have one to lose. Birth and death are
the same. Because there has been a birth, there has to be the
experience of death. If nothing gets born, there is nothing to die.
All those people who die had to be born at some time; those who
don't get born don't have to die. This is the way things are. Being
able to reflect in this way, means that as soon as you acquire that
tape recorder, you are mindful of its impermanence -- that one day
it will break down or get stolen, and that in the end it must
inevitably fall apart and completely disintegrate. You see the truth
with wisdom, and understand that the tape recorder's very nature is
impermanent. Whether the tape recorder actually breaks or gets
stolen, these are all just manifestations of impermanence. If you
can view things in the correct way, you will be able to use the tape
recorder without suffering.
You can compare this with setting up some kind of business in the
lay life. If at first you needed to get a loan from the bank to set
up the business operations, immediately you would begin to
experience stress. You would suffer because you wanted somebody
else's money. Looking for money is both difficult and tiring, and as
long as you were unsuccessful in trying to raise some, it would
causes you suffering. Of course, the day you successfully managed to
get a loan from the bank you would feel over the moon, but that
elation wouldn't last more than a few hours, because in no time at
all the interest payments on the loan would start to eat up all your
profits. You wouldn't have to do so much as raise one finger and
already your money would be draining away to the bank in interest
payments. Can you believe it! You would be sitting there suffering
again. Can you see this? Why is it like this? When you didn't have
any money you would suffer; when you finally receive some you think
your problems are over, but before long the interest payments would
start eating away at your funds, just leading you to more suffering.
This is the way it is.
The Buddha taught that the way to practise with this is to observe
the present moment, and develop insight into the transient nature of
the body and mind; to see the truth of the Dhamma -- that
conditioned things simply arise and pass away, and nothing more.
It's the nature of the body and mind to be that way, so don't attach
or cling firmly on to them. If you have insight into this, it gives
rise to peace as the result. This is peace that comes from letting
go of defilements; it arises in conjunction with the arising of
wisdom.
What causes wisdom to arise? It comes from contemplating the three
characteristics of impermanence, suffering and nonself, which brings
you insight into the truth of the way things are. You have to see
the truth clearly and unmistakably in your own mind. That is only
way to really gain wisdom. There has to be continuous clear insight.
You see for yourself that all mental objects and moods (arammana)
that arise into consciousness pass away and after that cessation
there is more arising. After more arising there is further
cessation. If you still have attachment and clinging suffering must
arise from moment to moment, but if you are letting go, you won't
create any suffering. Once the mind is clearly seeing the
impermanence of phenomena, this is what is meant by sitibhuto - the
internal witness. The mind is so firmly absorbed in its
contemplation that the insight is self-sustaining. So in the end,
you can only accept as partial truths all the teachings and wisdom
that you receive from others.
On one occasion the Buddha gave a discourse to a group of monks, and
afterwards asked Venerable Sariputta, who had been listening:
"Sariputta, do you believe what I have been teaching you?"
"I still don't believe it, Bhante," Sariputta replied. The Buddha
was pleased with this response and continued,
"That is good Sariputta. You shouldn't believe any teaching people
give you too easily. A sage must contemplate thoroughly everything
he hears before accepting it fully. You should take this teaching
away with you and contemplate it first." Even though he had received
a teaching from the Buddha himself, Venerable Sariputta didn't
immediately believe every single word of it. He was heedful of the
right way to train his mind, and took the teaching away with him to
investigate it further. He would only accept the teaching if, after
reflecting upon the Buddha's explanation of the truth, he found that
it stimulated the arising of wisdom in his own mind and this insight
made his mind peaceful and unified with the Dhamma (Truth). The
understanding that arose must lead to the Dhamma becoming fixed
within his own mind. It had to be in accordance with the truth of
the way things are. The Buddha taught his disciples to accept a
point of Dhamma only if, beyond all doubt, they found it to be in
line with the way things are in reality -- as seen both from one's
own and other people's experience and understanding.
In the end, the important thing is to simply investigate the truth.
You don't have to look very far away, just observe what's happening
in the present moment. Watch what is happening in your own mind. Let
go of the past. Let go of the future. Just be mindful of the present
moment, and wisdom will arise from investigating and seeing clearly
the characteristics of impermanence, suffering and nonself. If you
are walking see that it's impermanent, if sitting see that it's
impermanent, if lying down see that it's impermanent - whatever you
are doing, these characteristics will be manifesting the whole time,
because this is the way things are. That which is permanent is this
truth of the way things are. That never changes. If you cultivate
insight to the point where the way you view things is completely and
unwaveringly in line with this truth, you will be at ease with the
world.
Will it really be that peaceful going to live alone up in the
mountains somewhere? It's only a temporary kind of peace. Once you
start to feel hungry on a regular basis and the body lacks the
nourishment that it's used to, you'll become weary of the whole
experience again. The body will be crying out for its vitamins, but
the hill-tribe people who provide your alms-food don't know much
about the level of vitamins needed for a balanced diet. In the end
you'll probably come back down and return here to the monastery. If
you stay in Bangkok you'll probably complain that the people offer
too much food and that it's just a burden and lots of hassle, so
perhaps you will decide it is better to go and live way out in
seclusion in the forest somewhere. In truth, you must be pretty
foolish if you find living on your own causes you suffering. If you
find living in a community with lots of people is a lot of
suffering, you are equally foolish. It's like chicken shit. If you
are walking on your own somewhere carrying chicken shit, it stinks.
If there is a whole group of people walking around carrying chicken
shit, it stinks just the same. It can become habitual to keep
lugging around that which is rotten and putrid. This is because you
still have wrong view, but for someone with right view, although
they might be quite correct to think that living in a large
community isn't very peaceful, they would still be able to gain much
wisdom from the experience.
For myself, teaching large numbers of both monks, nuns and lay
people has been a great source of wisdom for me. In the past I had
fewer monks living with me, but then as more lay people came to
visit me and the resident community of monks and nuns grew in size,
I was exposed to much more because everybody has different thoughts,
views and experiences. My patience, endurance and tolerance matured
and strengthened as it was stretched to its very limits. When you
keep reflecting, all such experience can be of benefit to you, but
if you don't understand the truth of the way things are, at first
you might think that living alone is best and then after a while you
might get bored with it, so then you might think that living in a
large community is better. Or perhaps you might feel that being in a
place where there is only a little food offered is the ideal. You
might decide that a plentiful supply of food is actually the best
and that little food is no good at all, or you might change again
and conclude that too much food is a bad thing. In the end, most
people just remain forever caught up in views and opinions, because
they don't have enough wisdom to decide for themselves.
So try to see the uncertainty of things. If you are in a large
community, it's uncertain. If you are living with just a small
group, it's also not a sure thing. Don't attach or cling to views
about the way things are. Put effort into being mindful of the
present moment; investigate the body, penetrating deeper and deeper
inside. The Buddha taught monks and nuns to find a place to live and
train where you are at ease: where the food is suitable, the company
of fellow practitioners (kalyanamitta) is suitable and the lodgings
are comfortable. But actually finding a place where all these things
are just right and suited to your needs is difficult, so at the same
time, he also taught that wherever you go to live you might have to
encounter discomfort and put up with things that you don't like. For
instance, how comfortable is this monastery? If the lay people made
it really comfortable for you, what would it be like? Everyday they
would be at your service to bring you hot and cold drinks as you
wished and all the sweets and treats that you could eat. They would
be polite and praise you, saying all the right things. That's what
having good lay support is like isn't it? Some monks and nuns like
it that way: "The lay supporters here are really great... it's
really comfortable and convenient." In no time at all the whole
training in mindfulness and insight just dies. That's how it
happens.
What is really comfortable and suitable for meditation can mean
different things to different people, but once you know how to make
your own mind content with what you have, then wherever you go you
will feel at ease. If you have to stay somewhere that would perhaps
not be your first choice, you still know how to remain content while
you train there. If it's time to go elsewhere then you are content
to go. You don't have any worries about these external things. If
you don't know very much, things can be difficult; if you know too
much it can also bring you a lot of suffering -- everything can be a
source of discomfort and suffering. As long as you don't have any
insight you will constantly be caught into moods of satisfaction and
dissatisfaction stimulated by the conditions around you and
potentially every little thing can cause you to suffer. Wherever you
go, the meaning of the Buddha's teaching remains correct, but it is
the Dhamma in your own mind that is still not correct. Where will
you go to find the right conditions for practice? Maybe such and
such a monk has got it right and is really practising hard with the
meditation - as soon as the meal is finished he hurries away to
meditate. All he does is practise developing his samadhi. He's
really dedicated and serious about it. Or maybe he isn't so
dedicated, because you can't really know. If you really practise
wholeheartedly for yourself, you are certain to reach peace of mind.
If others are really dedicated and genuinely training themselves,
why are they not yet peaceful? This is the truth of the matter. In
the end, if they aren't peaceful, it shows that they can't be really
that serious about the practice after all.
When reflecting on the training in samadhi, it's important to
understand that virtue (sila), concentration (samadhi) and wisdom
(panna) are each essential roots that support the whole. They are
mutually supporting, each having its own indispensable role to play.
Each provides a necessary tool to be used in developing meditation,
but it's up to each individual to discover skilful ways to make use
of them. Someone with a lot of wisdom can gain insight easily;
someone with little wisdom gains insight with difficulty; someone
without any wisdom won't gain any insight. Two different people
might be following the same way of cultivating the mind, but whether
they actually gain insight into the Dhamma will depend on the amount
of wisdom each has. If you go to observe and train with different
teachers you must use wisdom to put what you see in perspective. How
does this Ajahn do it? What's that Ajahn's style like? You watch
them closely - but that's as far as it goes. It's all just watching
and judging on the external level. It's just looking at their
behaviour and way of doing things on the surface. If you simply
observe things on this level you will never stop doubting. Why does
that teacher do it this way? Why does this teacher do it another
way? In that monastery the teacher gives lots of talks, why does the
teacher in this monastery give so few talks? In that other monastery
the teacher doesn't even give any talks at all! It's just crazy when
the mind proliferates endlessly, comparing and speculating about all
the different teachers. In the end you simply wind yourself up into
a mess. You must turn your attention inward and cultivate for
yourself. The correct thing to do is focus internally on your own
training, as this is how right practice (samma-patipada) develops.
You simply observe different teachers and learn from their example,
but then you have to do it yourself. If you contemplate at this more
subtle level, all that doubting will stop.
There was one senior monk who didn't spend a lot of time thinking
and reflecting about things. He didn't give much importance to
thoughts about the past or the future, because he wouldn't let his
attention move away from the mind itself. He watched intently what
was arising into his awareness in the present moment. Observing the
mind's changing behaviour and different reactions as it experienced
things, he wouldn't attach importance to any of it, repeating the
teaching to himself: "It's uncertain." "It's not a sure thing." If
you can teach yourself to see impermanence in this way, it won't be
long before you gain insight into the Dhamma.
In fact, you don't have to run after the proliferating mind. Really,
it just moves around it's own enclosed circuit; it spins around in
circles. This is the way your mind works. It's samsara vatta - the
endless cycle of birth and death. This completely encircles the
mind. If you tried pursuing the mind as it spins around would you be
able to catch it? It moves so fast would you even be able to keep up
with it? Try chasing after it and see what happens... What you need
to do is stand still at one point, and let the mind spin around the
circuit by itself. Imagine the mind was a mechanical doll, which was
able to run around. If it began running faster and faster until it
was running at full speed, you wouldn't be able to run fast enough
to keep up with it. But actually, you wouldn't need to run anywhere.
You could just stand still in one place and let the doll do the
running. If you were to stand still in the middle of the circuit,
without chasing after it, you would be able to see the doll every
time it ran past you and completed a lap. In fact, if you did try
running after it, the more you tried to chase after and catch it,
the more it would be able to elude you.
As far as going on thudong_is concerned, I both encourage it and
discourage it at the same time. If the practitioner already has some
wisdom in the way of training, there should be no problem. However,
there was one monk I knew who didn't see it as necessary to go on
thudong into the forest; he didn't see thudong as a matter of
travelling anywhere. Having thought about it, he decided to stay and
train in the monastery, vowing to undertake three of the dhutanga
practices and to keep them strictly, without going anywhere. He felt
it wasn't necessary to make himself tired walking long distances
with the heavy weight of his monk's alms bowl, robes and other
requisites slung over his shoulder. His way was quite a valid one
too; but if you really had a strong desire to go out wandering about
the forests and hills on thudong, you wouldn't find his style very
satisfying. In the end, if you have clear insight into the truth of
things, you only need to hear one word of the teaching and that will
bring you deep and penetrating insight.
Another example I could mention is that young novice I once
encountered who wanted to practice living in a cemetery completely
alone. As he was still more or less a child, hardly into his teens,
I was quite concerned for his well being, and kept an eye on him to
see how he was doing. In the morning he would go on alms round in
the village, and afterwards bring his food back to the cremation
ground where he would eat his meal alone, surrounded by the pits
where the corpses of those who hadn't been burned were buried. Every
night he would sleep quite alone next to the remains of the dead.
After I had been staying nearby for about a week I went along to
check and see how he was. On the outside he seemed at ease with
himself, so I asked him:
"So you're not afraid staying here then?"
"No I'm not afraid", he replied.
"How come you're not frightened?"
"It seems to me unlikely that there's anything much to be afraid
of." All it needed was this one simple reflection for the mind to
stop proliferating. That novice didn't need to think about all sorts
of different things that would merely complicate the matter. He was
"cured" straight away. His fear vanished. You should try meditating
in this way.
I say that whatever you are doing -- whether standing, walking,
coming or going -- if you sustain mindfulness without giving up,
your samadhi won't deteriorate. It won't decline. If there's too
much food you say that it's suffering and just trouble. What's all
the fuss about? If there is a lot, just take a small amount and
leave the rest for everybody else. Why make so much trouble for
yourself over this? It's not peaceful? What's not peaceful? Just
take a small portion and give the rest away. But if you are attached
to the food and feel bad about giving it up to others, then of
course you will find things difficult. If you are fussy and want to
have a taste of this and a taste of that, but not so much of
something else, you'll find that in the end you've chosen so much
food that you've filled the bowl to the point where none of it
tastes very delicious anyway. So you end up attaching to the view
that being offered lots of food is just distracting and a load of
trouble. Why get so distracted and upset? It's you who are letting
yourself get stirred up by the food. Does the food itself ever get
distracted and upset? It's ridiculous. You are getting all worked up
over nothing.
When there are a lot of people coming to the monastery, you say it's
disturbing. Where's the disturbance? Actually, following the daily
routine and the ways of training is fairly straightforward. You
don't have to make a big deal out of this: you go on alms round,
come back and eat the meal, you do any necessary business and chores
training yourself with mindfulness, and just get on with things. You
make sure you don't miss out on the various parts of the monastic
routine. When you do the evening chanting does your cultivation of
mindfulness really collapse? If simply doing the morning and evening
chanting causes your meditation to fall apart, it surely shows that
you haven't really learnt to meditate anyway. In the daily meetings,
the bowing, chanting praise to the Buddha, Dhamma, Sangha and
everything else you do are extremely wholesome activities, so can
they really be the cause for your samadhi to degenerate? If you
think that it's distracting going to meetings, look again. It's not
the meetings that are distracting and unpleasant, it's you. If you
let unskilful thinking stir you up, then everything becomes
distracting and unpleasant -- even if you don't go out to the
meetings, you end up just as distracted and stirred up.
You have to learn how to reflect wisely and keep your mind in a
wholesome state. Everybody gets caught into such states of confusion
and agitation, particularly those who are new to the training. What
actually happens is that you allow your mind to go out and interfere
with all these things and stir itself up. When you come to train
with a monastic community determine yourself to just stay there and
just keep practising. Whether other people are training in the
correct way or wrong way is their business. Keep putting effort into
the training, following the monastic guidelines and helping each
other with any useful advice you can offer. Anyone who isn't happy
training here is free to go elsewhere. If you want to stay then go
ahead and get on with the practice.
It has an extremely beneficial effect on the community if there is
one of the group who is self-contained and solidly training himself.
The other monks around will start to notice and take example from
the good aspects of that monk's behaviour. They will observe him and
ask themselves how it is he manages to maintain a sense of ease and
calm while training himself in mindfulness. The good example
provided by that monk is one of the most beneficial things he can do
for his fellow beings. If you are a junior member of a monastic
community, training with a daily routine and keeping to rules about
the way things are done, you have to follow the lead of the senior
monks and keep putting effort into the routine. Whatever the
activity is you do it, and when it's time to finish you stop. You
say those things that are appropriate and useful, and train yourself
to refrain from speech that is inappropriate and harmful. Don't
allow that kind of speech to slip out. There's no need to take lots
of food at the mealtime - just take a few things and leave the rest.
When you see that there's a lot of food, the tendency is to indulge
and start picking a little of this and trying a little of that and
that way you end up eating everything that's been offered. When you
hear the invitation, " Please take some of this, Ajahn", "Please
take some of that, Venerable", if you're not careful it will just
stir up the mind. The thing to do is let go. Why get involved with
it? You think that it's the food stirring you up, but the real root
of the problem is that you let the mind go out and meddle with the
food. If you can reflect and see this, it should make life a lot
easier. The problem is you don't have enough wisdom. You don't have
enough insight to see how the process of cause and effect works.
Actually, while on the road in the past, when it has been necessary
I've even been prepared to stay in one of the village or city
monasteries._ In the course of your travels when you are alone and
have to pass through different monastic communities that have
varying standards of training and discipline, recite the verse to
yourself: "suddhi asuddhi paccattam" (the purity or impurity of
one's virtue is something one knows for oneself), both as a
protection and as a guideline for reflection. You might end up
having to rely on your own integrity in this way.
When you are moving through an area you haven't been to before you
might have to make a choice over the place you are going to stay for
the night. The Buddha taught that monks and nuns should live in
peaceful places. So, depending on what's available, you should try
and find a place to stay and meditate that is peaceful. If you can't
find a really quiet place, you can as second best, at least find a
place where you are able to be at peace internally. So, if for some
reason it's necessary to stay in a certain place, you must learn how
to live there peacefully - without letting craving (tanha) overcome
the mind. If you then decide to leave that monastery or forest,
don't leave because of craving. Similarly, if you are staying
somewhere, don't stay there because of craving. Understand what is
motivating your thinking and actions. It's true that the Buddha
advised monastics to lead a lifestyle and find living conditions
that are conducive to peace and suitable for meditation. How will
you cope on those occasions when you can't find a peaceful place? In
the end the whole thing could just drive you crazy. Where will you
go next? Stay right where you are; stay put and learn to live in
peace. Train yourself until you are able to stay and meditate in the
place you are in. The Buddha taught that you should know and
understand proper time and place according to conditions; he didn't
encourage monks and nuns to roam around all over the place without
any real purpose. Certainly he recommended that we find a suitable
quiet place, but if that's not possible, it might be necessary to
spend a few weeks or a few months in a place that isn't so quiet or
suitable. What would you do then? You would probably just die from
the shock of it!
So learn to know your own mind and know your intentions. In the end,
travelling around from place to place is only that much. When you
move on to somewhere else, you tend to find more of the same of what
you left behind, and you're always doubting about what might lie
ahead at the next place. Then, before you know it, you could find
yourself with malaria or some other unpleasant illness, and you'd
have to find a doctor to treat you, give you drugs and injections...
In no time at all, your mind would be more agitated and distracted
than ever!
Actually, the secret to successful meditation is to bring your way
of viewing things in line with the Dhamma; the important thing is to
establish right view (sammaditthi) in the mind. It isn't anything
more complicated than that. But you have to keep putting forth
effort to investigate and seek out the correct way for yourself.
Naturally, this involves some difficulty, because you still lack
maturity of wisdom and understanding.
So, what do you think you'll do? Try giving thudong a go and see
what happens... you might get fed up with wandering about again;
it's never a sure thing. Or maybe you're thinking that if you really
get into the meditation, you won't want to go on thudong, because
the whole proposition will seem uninteresting -- but that perception
is uncertain. You might feel totally bored with the idea of going on
thudong, but that can always change and it might not be long before
you start wanting to go off moving about again. Or you might just
stay out on thudong indefinitely and continue to wander from place
to place with no time limits or any fixed destination in mind --
again, it's uncertain. This is what you have to reflect upon as you
meditate. Go against the flow of your desires. You might attach to
the view that you'll go on thudong for certain, or you might attach
to the view that you will stay put in the monastery for certain, but
either way you are getting caught in delusion. You are attaching to
fixed views in the wrong way. Go and investigate this for yourself.
I have already contemplated this from my own experience, and I'm
explaining the way it is as simply and directly as I can. So listen
to what I am saying, and then observe and contemplate for yourself.
This really is the way things are. In the end you will be able to
see the truth of this whole matter for yourself. Then, once you do
have insight into the truth, whatever decision you make will be
accompanied by right view and in accordance with the Dhamma.
Whatever you decide to do, whether to go on thudong or stay on in
the monastery, you must wisely reflect first. It isn't that you are
forbidden from going off wandering in the forest, or going to find
quiet places to meditate. If you do go off walking, really make a go
of it and walk until you are worn out and ready to drop -- test
yourself to the limits of your physical and mental endurance. In the
old days, as soon as I caught sight of the mountains, I'd feel
elated and be inspired to take off. Nowadays when I see them, the
body starts moaning just at the sight of them and all I want to do
is turn around and go back to the monastery. There's not much
enthusiasm for all that any more. Before, I'd be really happy to
live up in the mountains -- I even thought I'd spend my whole life
living up there!
The Buddha taught to be mindful of what's arising in the present
moment. Know the truth of the way things are in the present moment.
These are the teachings he left you and they are correct, but your
own thoughts and views are still not correctly in line with the
Dhamma, and that's why you continue to suffer. So try out thudong if
it seems like the right thing to do. See what it's like moving
around from place to place and how that affects your mind.
I don't want to forbid you from going on thudong, but I don't want
to give you permission either. Do you understand my meaning? I
neither want to prevent you, nor allow you to go, but I will share
with you some of my experience. If you do go on thudong, use the
time to benefit your meditation. Don't just go like a tourist,
having fun travelling around. These days it looks like more and more
monks and nuns go on thudong to indulge in a bit of sensual
enjoyment and adventure rather than to really benefit their own
spiritual training. If you do go, then really make a sincere effort
to use the dhutanga practices to ware away the defilements. Even if
you stay in the monastery, you can take up these dhutanga practices.
These days, what they call "thudong" tends to be more a time for
seeking excitement and stimulation than training with the thirteen
dhutanga practices. If you go off like that you are just lying to
yourself when you call it "thudong". It's an imaginary thudong.
Thudong can actually be something that supports and enhances your
meditation. When you go you should really do it. Contemplate what is
the true purpose and meaning of going on thudong. If you do go, I
encourage you to use the experience as an opportunity to learn and
further your meditation, not just waste time. I won't let monks go
off if they are not yet ready for it, but if someone is sincere and
seriously interested in the practice, I won't stop them.
When you are planning to go off, it's worth asking yourself these
questions and reflecting on them first. Staying up in the mountains
can be a useful experience; I used to do it myself. In those days I
would have to get up really early in the morning because the houses
where I went on alms round were such a long way away. I might have
to go up and down an entire mountain and sometimes the walk was so
long and arduous that I wouldn't be able to get there and back in
time to eat the meal at my camp before midday. If you compare it
with the way things are these days, you can see that maybe it's not
actually necessary to go to such lengths and put yourself through so
much hardship. It might actually be more beneficial to go on alms
round to one of the villages near to the monastery here, return to
eat the meal and have lots of energy left in reserve to put forth
effort in the formal practice. That's if you're training yourself
sincerely, but if you're just into taking it easy and like to go
straight back to your hut for a sleep after the meal, that isn't the
correct way to go it. In the days when I was on thudong, I might
have to leave my camp at the crack of dawn and use up much of my
energy just in the walk across the mountains - even then I might be
so pushed for time I'd have to eat my meal in the middle of the
forest somewhere before getting back. Reflecting on it now, I wonder
if it's worth putting oneself to all that bother. It might be better
to find a place to practice where the alms route to the local
village is not too long or difficult, which would allow you to save
your energy for formal meditation. By the time you have cleaned up
and are back at your hut ready to continue meditating, that monk up
in the mountains would still be stuck out in the forest without even
having begun to eat his meal.
Views on the best way of practice can differ. Sometimes, you
actually have to experience some suffering before you can have
insight into suffering and know it for what it is. Thudong can have
its advantages, but I neither criticise those who stay in the
monastery nor those who go off on thudong - if their aim is to
progress in training themselves. I don't praise monks just because
they stay in the monastery, nor do I praise monks simply because
they go off on thudong either. Those who really deserve praise are
the ones with right view. If you stay in the monastery, it should be
for cultivating the mind. If you go off, it should be for
cultivating the mind. The meditation and training goes wrong when
you go off with the group of friends you are attached to, only
interested in having a good time together and getting involved in
foolish pursuits.
What do you have to say about the way of training? What do you think
about what I have been saying? What do you think you'll decide to do
in the future then?
Venerable S: I'd like to ask for some teaching about the suitability
of different meditation objects for different temperaments. For a
long time now I've tried calming the mind by focusing attention on
the breathing in conjunction with reciting the meditation word "Buddho",
but I have never become very peaceful. I've tried contemplating
death, but that hasn't helped calm the mind down. Reflecting on the
five aggregates (khandhas) hasn't worked either. So I've finally
exhausted all my wisdom.
Ajahn Chah: Just let go! If you've exhausted all your wisdom, you
must let go.
Venerable S: As soon as I begin to experience a little bit of calm
during sitting meditation, a multitude of memories and thoughts
immediately spring up and disturb the mind.
Ajahn Chah: That's just the point. It's uncertain. Teach yourself
that it's not certain. Sustain this reflection on impermanence as
you meditate. Every single sense object and mental state you
experience is impermanent without exception. Keep this reflection
present in the mind constantly. In the course of meditation, reflect
that the distracted mind is uncertain. When the mind does become
calm with samadhi, it's uncertain just the same. The reflection on
impermanence is the thing you should really hold on to. You don't
need to give too much importance to anything else. Don't get
involved with the things that arise in the mind. Let go. Even if you
are peaceful, you don't need to think too much about it. Don't take
it too seriously. Don't take it too seriously if you're not peaceful
either. Vinnanam aniccam - have you ever read that anywhere? It
means sense consciousness is impermanent. Have you ever heard that
before? How should you train yourself in relation to this truth? How
should you contemplate when you find that both peaceful and agitated
mind states are transient? The important thing is to sustain
awareness of the way things are. In other words know that both the
calm mind and the distracted mind are uncertain. Once you know this,
how will you view things? Once this understanding is implanted in
the mind, whenever you experience peaceful states you know that they
are transient and when you experience agitated states you know that
they are transient also. Do you know how to meditate with this kind
of awareness and insight?
Venerable S: I don't know.
Ajahn Chah: Investigate impermanence. How many days can those
tranquil mental states really last? Sitting meditation with a
distracted mind is uncertain. When the meditation brings good
results and the mind enters a state of calm, that's also uncertain.
This is where insight comes. What is there left for you to attach
to? Keep following up on what's happening in the mind. As you
investigate, keep questioning and prodding, probing deeper and
deeper into the nature of impermanence. Sustain your mindfulness
right at this point - you don't have to go anywhere else. In no time
at all, the mind will calm down just as you want it to.
The reason practising with the meditation word "Buddho" doesn't make
the mind peaceful, or practising mindfulness of breathing doesn't
make the mind peaceful is because you are attaching to the
distracted mind. When reciting "Buddho" or concentrating on the
breath and the mind still hasn't calmed down, reflect on uncertainty
and don't get too involved with the state of mind whether it's
peaceful or not. Even if you enter a state of calm, don't get too
involved with it, because it can delude you and cause you to attach
too much meaning and importance to that state. You have to use some
wisdom when dealing with the deluded mind. When it is calm you
simply acknowledge the fact and take it as a sign that the
meditation is going in the right direction. If the mind isn't calm
you simply acknowledge the reality that the mind is confused and
distracted, but there's nothing to be gained from refusing to accept
the truth and trying to struggle against it. When the mind is
peaceful you can be aware that it is peaceful, but remind yourself
that any peaceful state is uncertain. When the mind is distracted,
you observe the lack of peace and know that it is just that -- the
distracted state of mind is equally as prone to change as a peaceful
one.
If you have established this kind of insight, the attachment to the
sense of self collapses as soon as you begin to confront it and
investigate. When the mind is agitated, the moment you begin to
reflect on the uncertainty of that state, the sense of self, blown
up out of attachment, begins to deflate. It tilts to one side like
an inflatable boat that has been punctured. As the air rushes out of
the boat, it starts to capsize and similarly the sense of self
collapses. Try it out for yourself. The trouble is that usually you
fail to catch your deluded thinking fast enough. As it arises, the
sense of self immediately forms around the mental agitation, but as
soon as you reflect on it's changing nature the attachment
collapses.
Try looking at this for yourself. Keep questioning and examining
deeper and deeper into the nature of attachment. Normally, you fail
to stop and question the agitation in the mind. But you must be
patient and feel your way. Let the agitated proliferation run its
course, and then slowly continue to feel your way. You are more used
to not examining it, so you must be determined to focus attention on
it, be firm and don't give it any space to stay in the mind. But
when I give talks, you usually burst out complaining in frustration:
"All this old Ajahn ever talks about is impermanence and the
changing nature of things." From the first moment you can't stand
hearing it and just want to flee somewhere else. "Luang Por only has
one teaching... that everything is uncertain." If you are truly
really fed up with this teaching, you should go off and pursue your
meditation until you develop enough insight to bring some real
confidence and certainty to your mind. Go ahead and give it a go. In
no time at all you will probably be back here again! So try to
commit these teachings to memory and store them in your heart. Then
go ahead and try out wandering about on thudong. If you don't come
to understand and see the truth in the way I've explained, you'll
find little peace. Wherever you are, you won't be at ease within
yourself. You won't be able to find anywhere that you can really
meditate at all.
I agree that doing a lot of formal meditation to develop samadhi is
a good thing. Are you familiar with the terms ceto vimutti and panna
vimutti? Do you understand the meaning of them? Vimutti means
liberation from the mental taints (asavas)_. There are two ways the
mind can gain liberation: ceto vimutti refers to liberation that
comes after samadhi has been developed and perfected to its most
powerful and refined level. The practitioner first develops the
ability to suppress the defilements completely through the power of
samadhi and then turns to the development of insight to finally gain
liberation. Panna vimutti means release from the outflows where the
practitioner develops samadhi to a level where the mind is
completely one-pointed and firm enough to support and sustain
insight, which then takes the lead in cutting through the
defilements.
These two kinds of liberation are comparable to different kinds of
trees. Some species of trees grow and flourish with frequent
watering, but others can die if you give them too much water. With
those trees you only need to give them small amounts of water, just
enough to keep them going. Some species of pine are like that: if
you over water them they just die. You only need to give them a
little water once in a while. Strange, isn't it? Look at this pine
tree. It appears so dry and parched that you wonder how it manages
to grow. Think about it. Where does it get the water it needs to
survive and produce those big, lush branches? Other kinds of trees
would need much more water to grow to a similar size. Then there are
those kinds of plants that they put in pots and hang up in different
places with the roots dangling in mid-air. You'd think they would
just die, but very quickly the leaves grow longer and longer with
hardly any water at all. If they were just the ordinary kind of
plants that grow on the ground, they would probably just shrivel up.
It's the same with these two kinds of release. Do you see it? It is
just that they naturally differ in this way.
Vimutti means liberation. Ceto vimutti is liberation that comes from
the strength of mind that has been trained in samadhi to the maximum
level. It's like those trees that need lots of water to flourish.
The other kinds of trees only need a small amount of water. With too
much water they just die. It's their nature to grow and thrive
requiring only small amounts of water. So the Buddha taught that
there are two kinds of liberation from the defilements, ceto vimutti
and panna vimutti. To gain liberation, it requires both wisdom and
the power of samadhi. Is there any difference between samadhi and
wisdom?
Venerable S: No.
Ajahn Chah: Why do they give them different names? Why is there this
split between ceto vimutti and panna vimutti?
Venerable S: It's just a verbal distinction.
Ajahn Chah: That's right. Do you see it? If you don't see this, you
can very easily go running around labelling and making such
distinctions and even get so carried away that you start to lose
your grip on reality. Actually though, each of these two kinds of
liberation does have a slightly different emphasis. It wouldn't be
correct to say that they were exactly the same, but they aren't two
different things either. Am I correct if I answer in this way? I
will say that these two things are neither exactly the same, nor
different. This is the way I answer the question. You must take what
I have said away with you and reflect on it.
Talking about the speed and fluency of mindfulness makes me think of
the time I was wandering alone and having come across an old
abandoned monastery in the course of my travels, set up my umbrella
and mosquito net to camp there and practise meditation for a few
days. In the grounds of the monastery there were many fruit trees,
the branches of which were laden with ripe fruit. I really wanted to
eat some but I didn't dare to because I was afraid that the trees
were the property of the monastery and I hadn't received permission
to take any. Later on a villager came by with a basket and seeing
that I was staying there, asked me for permission to pick the fruit.
Perhaps they asked me because they thought I was the owner of the
trees. Reflecting on it, I saw that I had no real authority to give
them permission to take the fruit, but that if I forbade them they
would criticise me as being possessive and stingy with the
monastery's fruit trees -- either way there would be some harmful
results. So I replied to the layperson: "Even though I'm staying in
this monastery, I'm not the owner of the trees. I understand you
want some of the fruit... I won't forbid you from taking any, but I
won't give you permission either. So it's up to you." That's all it
needed: they didn't take any! Speaking in this way was actually
quite useful; I didn't forbid them, but I didn't give them
permission either, so there was no sense of being burdened by the
matter. This was the wise way to deal with such a situation -- I was
able to keep one step ahead of them. Speaking that way produced good
results then and it's still a useful way of speaking to this day.
Sometimes if you speak to people in this unusual manner it's enough
to make them wary of doing something wrong.
What do they mean by temperament (carita)?
Bhikkhu A.: Temperament? I'm not sure how to answer that.
Ajahn Chah: The mind is one thing, temperament is another and the
wisdom faculty another. So how do you train with this? Contemplate
them. How do they talk about them? There is the person of lustful
temperament, hateful temperament, deluded temperament, intelligent
temperament and so on. Temperament is determined by those mental
states within which the mind attaches and conceals itself most
often. For some people it's lust, others it's aversion. Actually,
these are all just verbal descriptions of the characteristics of the
mind, but they can be distinguished as distinct from each other.
So you've been a monk for six years already. You've probably been
running after your thoughts and moods long enough -- you've already
been chasing them for many years. There are quite a few monks who
want to go and live alone and I've got nothing against it. If you
want to live alone then give it a go. If you're living in a
community, stick with it. Neither is wrong - if you don't reflect in
the wrong way. If you are living alone and caught into wrong
thinking, that will prevent you benefiting from the experience. The
most appropriate kind of place for practising meditation is
somewhere quiet and peaceful. But when a suitably peaceful place is
not available, if you are not careful your meditation practice will
just die. You'll find yourself in trouble. So be careful not to
scatter your energy and awareness by seeking out too many different
teachers, different techniques or places to meditate. Gather
together your thoughts and focus your energy. Turn attention inwards
and sustain awareness on the mind itself. Use these teachings to
observe and investigate the mind over a long period of time. Don't
discard them; keep them with you as a subject for reflection. Look
at what I've been saying about all conditioned things being subject
to change. Impermanence is something to investigate over time. It
won't take long before you gain clear insight into it. One teaching
a senior monk gave me when I was new to meditation that has stuck
with me is simply to go ahead and train the mind. The important
thing is not to get caught up in doubting. That's enough for now.
The five khandhas: the five groups or aggregates that the Buddha has
summed up all physical and mental phenomena of existence, and which
appear to the deluded person as a self or personality. They are
physical form (rupa-khandha), feeling (vedana), memory and
perception (sanna), mental formations (sankhara) and sense
consciousness (vinnana).
Thudong (Thai Language) generally refers to the practice of
wandering. It is derived from the Pali word dhutanga, which refers
to the thirteen austere practices. These are strict observances
recommended by the Buddha to monks, as a help to cultivate
contentedness, renunciation, energy and other wholesome qualities.
One or more of them may be observed for a shorter or longer period
of time. They include the vows of: wearing patched-up robes, wearing
only three robes, going for alms, not omitting any house while going
for alms, eating at one sitting, eating only from the alms-bowl,
refusing all further food, living in the forest, living under a
tree, living in the open air, living in a cemetery, being satisfied
with whatever dwelling and sleeping in sitting position.
Generally the monks living in the village and city monasteries in
Thailand will spend more time studying the Pali language and the
Buddhist scriptures than training in the rules of discipline or
meditation, which is more emphasized in the forest tradition.
The four asava or taints include: the taint of sense-desire (kamasava),
of desiring eternal existence (bhavasava), of wrong views (ditthasava),
and of ignorance (avijjasava).
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